What is the meaning of this?

I have to say, I'm a little dumbfounded. I'm also incredibly touched, and a little scared. Mostly dumbfounded, though.

Here's the deal: I feel dead inside. Maybe it's the impending holidays (which never fails to fill my creative brain cells with chocolate and Christmas music, rendering them useless for much else), maybe it's the fact that I've been sleeping very little and have literally zombified, maybe it's the shorter amount of daylight...who knows. In any case, and for whatever reason, I'm brain dead, and in a creative coma.

Last night, I contemplated blogging and actually chose to make myself even more brain dead by watching "Bride Wars" (Note to Kate Hudson: bangs aren't your thang, girlfriend) and polishing off the rest of a delicious bottle of wine, courtesy of Chris Tugeau, Mother Extraordinaire.

I'm embarrassed to admit that fact - I am. I should have said that I watched "Love in the Time of Cholera" - or better yet, read it. But I need you to see how desperate the situation is! BRIDE WARS, people!

Don't ask my why Robin is checking my blog while she should be working (busted!) but she just asked me what the deal is. It's been 19 days since my last entry, and I can't tell you what I've been doing instead.

Well, I know what I did one night (see picture).

I told her that I was in a coma and to wake me when the holidays are over and I can once again decipher ass from elbow. But then, I became curious.

I've been radio silent for nearly a month...has anyone noticed? Does anyone care? How can I procrastinate on this invoicing any more than I already have?

I had to know. I had to procrastinate. And so, I checked.

Mind you, I still don't know if anyone cares, (as I am many things, but mind-reader is not one of them) but people - a lot of people - have noticed! Holy Cow! I have hits on a daily basis! Lots of 'em! Even some on the weekends...which surprises me the most, as all the tea in China couldn't get me in front of a computer on the weekend.

Like I said, I'm touched. I mean, look how many "!'s" I just used. That's my LEAST FAVORATE PUNCTUATION! That's how touched I am.

I don't know who you are - but thanks, Friend. Thanks for the love.

That said, it's amazing what a little love can do. I've got a blog idea - it just came to me, and it's practically writing itself.

So...head's up, Loyal Readers...

INCOMING!


ps - To follow up: I went out on Halloween night, and saw more T&A than a straight girl who's afraid of nakedness should ever see in a lifetime. Well done, Women of New York - you have not let me down. You've made me want to gauge my eyes out, but you have not disappointed.